Life can be hard sometimes

My husbands mom has been very sick for a very long time. Even before we started dating she was very sick. She lives in Pittsburgh, where the rest of his close family lives, very far from us. Yesterday, his sister called and said that their mom may die tonight or tomorrow and is losing lots of blood. We are looking at plane tickets and figuring out what to do. I (thank God) have never had anyone close to me pass. I know I'm one of the lucky ones. It's hard to watch my husband and the pain in his eyes. If your reading this please say a small prayer for my family and hope my mother in law is peaceful and in no pain. Thank you

So What Wednesdays!

It's Wednesday again! This week I'm saying SO WHAT if....

- I complain about my new job. Yay, it is def better then the last one but it's not what I expected!! I was told that I would move up to sales ASAP and that is NOT happening!!! I'm tired of doing inventory and greeting people!! It's not me and I'm not happy!
- I bought the Naked Pallette spur of the moment and then returned it, we are short on money right now and there is no reason why I need to spend $50 on eyeshadow!
-My usually organized closet is a MESS! Shoes everywhere, empty hangers it's BAD
- We still have not bought a sofa, I can't find one that I have fallen in love with!
- Washing clothes every few days is starting to drive me insane, I usually do it once a week but I wear a uniform and only have 4 shirts. It SUCKS
- I'm nervous about TTC, I have been off the pill since September and right now we are just seeing what would happen but nothing has happened!! You spend so much time trying not to get pregnant and then when you want to you can!!! Unbelivable!

Currently I'm...

Listening....to the news, something about a white powder making people sick found in two towns near us. If you want to really put a down on your day just turn on the news. So many horrible things going on!

Eating...Nothing, ate a PB&J for lunch and making tomato soup and grilled cheeses for dinner. Easy and warm...it's FREEZING here!

Drinking...Water, wish it was a nice warm cup of hot cocoa! Maybe after dinner..

Wearing...Old Abercrombie Sweatshirt, Pink Boyfriend Pants and Fuzzy Slippers...I'm sexy and I know it (not)

Feeling...At peace, called my grandmother today after not talking to her for about 8 months. I know it sounds horrible and that I'm a terrible person but there is a lot of hurt behind this. There may be an upcoming post on this roller coaster of a relationship

Weather...Freezing!!!! Kind of excited to pull out my uggs!! South Florida never gets cold!!!

Wanting...New furniture, I need a new living room set!

Needing... Who doesn't need money?!?!

Thinking...About how cute my little angel Bentley is while he sleeps on my tummy.

Enjoying...laying down and relaxing, I worked 9 days in a row last week! I'm tired!!

Hello 2012!!

2011 was the most amazing, exciting, and nerve wracking year I have ever had! Engaged, graduation, wedding, buying a house with my hubby, we have done it all this year!!! I do have a few resolutions for this next year that I hope to stick by!

1) Stop sweating the small stuff

2) Be a better sister

3) Start saving money

4) Continue juicing

5) Get my but back on the tredmill

6) Be a great mom (if the time comes this year)

7) Be a better wifey

Fair well 2011, you were so very good to me!! Hope 2012 can live up to what you have done for me!!

Merry Christmas From Santa Bentley

He makes a horrible Santa. Anyways , I hope you have a magical Christmas filled with family and friends and lots of food!! I'm spending it with my family at my house but don't have lots of time because I'm working a lot! Bring on that overtime!! My mom made the whole Christmas eve dinner and I'm having a brunch for Christmas morning! xoxo!

Kinda in a funk

I'm a happy girl. I always try to smile, and be as positive as I can be but these past few days I've been in a really bad funk. Not sure why, ive just been feeling not so good about myself. It may have to do with the fact I'm not a major salesperson at my new job like a used to be at my old job. I think that used to help boost my confidence a bit. Yesterday, my managers did an observation on me and they said i scream no confidence with my body language. Kinda hard to hear. I just need to practice more and get more comfortable I guess. I'm also tired of being the new person!! Oh well, I guess it can only get better :( sorry for my boring rant! Just needed to get it out! Happy Sunday!

So What Wednesday

Soooo What.....

- Since I've started my new job and go into work later the first thing I turn on is Maury. Who needs to know what is going on in the world....I need to know who the daddy is!!!
- If the other night I had a few friends over and my mom made the whole dinner a few hours before they came. She makes amazing pasta and sauce!! Thank you mom :)
- If my tan is gone :( I stopped my tanning bed membership a few months ago. Wrinkles and skin cancer is NOT something I'm willing to risk for a tanned look. Tan towels here I come!
- If these Teen Mom 2 girls drive me crazy but I can't stop watching!! Chelsea drives me crazy!! She is always breathing through her mouth and always going back to the LOSER! Oh and Jeanelle give it up!! Take care of your damn child!!!
- My baby Bentley now has a Facebook...don't judge, he wanted to be known. It's so funny people are actually asking to be his friend and writing on his wall...even funnier then the crazy girl who made him one :)

Take care everyone xoxo

Ohhhh Christmas Tree...

Happy Friday! This past week has been a pretty good one! We finally got a new tree and it is beautiful. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

Here we are again!!

So What....

- If I don't have my Christmas tree up yet. I have all other decorations up but not the tree. We are going to go buy a new one tonight, the one we have now is very scrawny looking.
- If I have major baby fever! I'm ready to be a mommy! I know it will happen when it is suppose to but I'm so impatient!
- If I secretly jumped for joy when my former coworkers saw me and said I lost some weight! I have been thinking the exact opposite!
- If I love being busy, If I have nothing to do I go NUTS!
- If being a landlord is a lot harder then I thought it would be, chasing people for money SUCKS

Thats about it for this week! Have a wonderfully Wednesday!

Thankful

This year has brought more happiness and joy then I could ever imagine. As I sit here in my warm bed with my puppy by my side and hear my husband watching a hockey game in the living room, I can't help but realize how much love I have in my life. I'm very very blessed and sometimes I feel like I'm not thankful enough for all God has given me. Sometimes I get caught up in everything around me and don't just sit back and take in all the goodness around me. I hope each and everyone of you have a wonderful thanksgiving filled with food family and friends. Don't forget to take a look around and realize how blessed you are. xoxo

My week in pictures

Meeting baby Landin

My contribution to works "Thanksgiving Potluck"

Thanksgiving Decor

Sweet Angel

Poppy Seed Pork With Apples & Rice

So tonight the hubby and I are going to go meet our friends new little one Landin(baby fever to follow). We decided since they are wore out and sleep deprived we would bring them a yummy dinner so they relax a bit. Hubby wanted to bring pizza but I decided to step up my "wifey" game a bit and bring a delicious meal that I know everyone would enjoy (I mean if I love something doesn't everyone). This recipe came from Publix, our local supermarket. I made it last year for John and he LOVED IT. Its a perfect fall meal, even if its 80 degrees out here.



Poppy Seed Pork With Apples And Rice
Ingredients
1 medium onion
3 medium tart green apples
4 ribs celery
1 boneless Boston butt pork roast (2–3 lb)
1/2 teaspoon kosher salt
1/4 teaspoon pepper
1 tablespoon canola oil
3 1/2 cups apple juice
1 (12-oz) bottle poppy seed dressing
2 cups long grain white rice


Prep
Cut onion and apples into large wedges.
Cut celery into bite-size pieces.
Season pork with salt and pepper (wash hands).


Steps

Preheat large sauté pan on medium-high 2–3 minutes. Place oil in pan, then add pork; cook 2–3 minutes on each side or until well browned.
Transfer pork to slow cooker; add onions, celery, apple juice, and poppy seed dressing. Cover and begin to cook on HIGH for 2 hours (or Low for 3 hours).
Add apples; cook on HIGH 1–2 more hours (or on Low for 3–4 more hours) or until 180°F (for slicing) or 190°F (for shredding).
Prepare rice, about 30 minutes before serving, following package instructions. Slice or shred pork; serve with apples, sauce, and rice.

So What Wednesdays!

I'm linking up again with Shannon over at "Life After I Dew" Here are my "So Whats" for this week...


So What If ....

- I Just started working out today again after about a month! At least I'm starting again!

- I'm a little bit nervous about Thanksgiving this year! Its my first time doing the Turkey all by myself! Of course my moms going to be here but I'm going to prove to everyone that I am capable of doing it myself...wish me luck!

- No one at my new job knows my personal number, are my friends on facebook or any other personal details about me. At my previous job EVERYONE knew EVERYTHING about me (my fault totally) and I promised myself to keep work at work and personal stuff at HOME!

- I havent brought Bentley to the groomers in about 2 months. He did get a nice bath yesterday though! I think he likes his long locks!

- If there are so many things I want to do to my new house! I just have to remember one step at a time!

Hello Blog World!

Well hello there! It has been a few weeks since I've blogged but I've been so busy! I'm really enjoying my new job, im learning more and more each day. My husband and I bought a new house which is AMAZING! Pics to come for sure! Im a bit overwhelmed because of all the clutter and boxes but everything will come in time. I'm so blessed, its unbelievable. I've also discovered pinterest and I am addicted!!! Here is a pic of Bentley and I from last night. He is such an angel :) Happy Halloween everyone!

It's the little things that count

Life is full of so many ups and downs it's nice to to sit back and think of all the little things that make me smile. I decided to do it on a Monday because well Mondays SUCK! :)

- The first cup of coffee in the morning...1/2 cream 1/2 vanilla. It's the perfect start to get going in the mornings
- Days off with my husband..I love sleeping in and not hearing the stupid alarm clock! It's so nice to make breakfast for him and just spend time together. It doesnt happen often so when it doesnt I take full advantage!
- Watching Bentley sleep...I love when he is in dreamworld, so calm and relaxed. He is so peaceful....unlike every other second of the day!
- My moms cooking...don't know what it is but everything she makes taste better just because she makes it!
- A good laugh, the kind of laugh that hurts your stomach! Love those!
- Waking up early....when I have to work I usually wake up about in hour before I really need to. Its nice to have some time to myself to get little things done before work. I usually try to hit the treadmill for a little during that time
-A rainy day and a lifetime movie

I have been blessed with so many things that it is nice to reflect on the little things that impact my life. I hope this little post makes you think about the little things that make you happy. Have a wonderful Monday!!

Love...

I love love. I really do. I have never been a party girl or anything like that. I've alway been a relationship kind of girl. I've really only been in 3 serious relationships (including my husband). Right here right now, 2 glasses of Pinot Grigio in (if my spelling or grammer is messed up please understand), I'm going to break it down and tell you about these 3 relationships...

Charles- Oh Charles, my first real true relationship. He was a chubby dark haired guy with a Georgia accent and a love for fishing and trucks. Not my type at ALL! During our almost 5 year relationship we had so many ups and downs, it was such a turmoulotus relationship. He wanted to be a kid, live with mommy and play video games all day while I wanted to get engaged, make money, and start a family. I can remember telling him "im not happy" but he would not listen. I finally decided that our relationship was not going anywhere around January 2010. It was finished. When I look back now I thank God that we didnt do all the things I wanted to do because God had bigger plans for both of us. Breaking up was probably one of the hardest things I have ever gone through. He was not only my boyfriend but he was my best friend. He was all I had ever known for a long time and I had to rebuild a life without him. I was also very close to him family and him mine so that was also another transition as well. We do not keep in contact anymore, I think it would be to weird and awkward to be friends after everything. Even though I look back and can't belive I stayed as long as I did, I learned so much about myself in that relationship and what I want out of life.

Josh- I can't even believe I have to put this in to a serious relationship catergory because it was exactly the opposite!! So before I started dating Charles at the end of high school, the previous 4 years I was obsessed with a guy named Josh. He was a bad boy. He had messy hair and glassies and hung out with the popular crowd. Throughout high school we dated (if you want to call it that). When I met Charles and we started getting serious I told Josh that we were finished and that was it. No more messing around with my heart!! After that, from what he told me later on he got into really bad drugs and his life went down hill. After Charles and I broke up I had such a smart idea (not) to call Josh and tell him that I was single and we could start off where we left off. Maybe in my vunerable brain I thought that maybe we were ment to be, maybe he was the one I was suppose to be with. So he def was not. I knew he had a lieing problem but I didnt care, I would just pretend like I knew he wasent lieing. I even almost got an apartment with him!!! I can remember sitting in the leasing office and The Fray's song "over my head" came on the radio and thinking that is exactly how I feel. Thank GOSH I didnt sign it! WHAT THE HECK WAS I THINKING!!!!!!! After about 3 months of dating I decided to call it quits with him. After all is said and done and I look back on that small tiny part of my life I think I may have learning the most. I learned to NEVER EVER jump into a relationship right after a break up and also if you have a bad feeling about a person do NOT continue to pretend that everything is fine. I think Josh is doing good now but I really dont know. I hope he finds what he needs in life, all I know is IT WAS NOT ME!

John - Yay!! We finally made it to my favorite my HUSBAND! We met at work, never EVER in a million trillion years thought we would EVER be in any type of relationship let alone get MARRIED! As I have mentioned in previous posts he is a lot older then me. In the biggining it mattered a lot but now I dont even think about it too much. I guess its because I've always been around adults, as soon as I got out of high school I got my real estate license and was only around older people. I never had the mentality of a normal 18 year old, I was always thinking in a business sense not a party sense. We became really close at work, he knew all about my past relationships and issues and I knew about his. We never really went through a weird dating phase because we already knew eachother so much. I'm always learning so much from him and him from me. He is amazing, he has so much passion for life and I love it. The age scared me at first a little bit but you know if it works for us who cares!! I'm so proud to be his wife and the little family we have.


So there you have it, my relationships in a nut shell! Right now life is good, I have stability and I know my husband and I are a team. He is my rock, I know we can count on eachother through thick and thin! Cheers to past relationships that taught us what we want in our future relationships and double cheers to marrying your perfect match! I will leave you with a picture of us at our wedding having a blast in the photobooth!!

Do's and Dont's Of Traveling

So So SOOOO happy to be home!! Spending 3 weeks away from my family was WAY to much but a learning experience! Now that I am a pro traveler and all (2nd time on a plane and first time by myself...ok so my mom sheltered me a little bit!) I learned a few things on my adventure and decided to share them whith you! Here are my does and don'ts of traveling

1) Do NOT over pack...
I need options. I'm not one of those people who can pick out outfits for each day and only bring those while traveling. I mean I was going away for 3 weeks!! So I decided to try to pack literally everything and convinced myself that my check in bag was under 50 lbs. While flying to Atlanta I had my husband with me at the check in counter so when the bag weighed about 75 lb he was there to help me trasfer my stuff into my carry on. Different story coming home. If you were in Atlanta last Saturday morning and you were trying to self check in on a US Airways flight...I'm sorry. If you saw the girl on her hands and knees transferring things from one bag to another while ever US Airway counter person was screaming to get out of the way..again I'm sorry. It was a HUGE scene that I never want to go through again. I've learned my leason!

2)Do Experience New Things
I went to great places to eat (Publix, Boranda's and Escorpion are amazing local places in ATL), walked everywhere (brought everything but good walking shoes..I'm still paying for that), and rode the Marta (Atlanta Subway) for the first time. I went to the Coca Cola Factory which was so much fun! I also made 8 new friends that were in my training class who I will always try to keep in touch with. They are all amazing in there own ways!

Last but not least....


3) Do NOT get drunk on a business trip
Not my mistake but one of my fellow employees. Not a good scene...there were tears, vomit, and missing training class. Enough said


Here are some pics of my trip! Hope you enjoyed my do's and don'ts!

Coke Factory..Pretty Bottle


Hotlanta Baby!!!


First Time On A Subway...I know I'm such a Dork!


Celebrity Experience...Lamman Rucker from Why Did I Get Married. Awesome guy who was so sweet!! He was very impressed with my Pittsburgh Steelers Knowledge (Thanks babe!)

Alone

Right now I am sitting in a beautiful hotel room in Atlanta alone. I'm here for training for 3 weeks (i'm 1 week down) and I'm alone. I have met wonderful people and have done some great things but I feel truly alone. I miss my husband so much and I feel guilty that I'm not home beng his wife. I miss my baby Bentley, I know he misses his mommy so much. He hasent been eating so well the past week. A yorkie walked through the lobby of the hotel today and I BURSTED out in tears! I miss my mom, dad, and sister so much too. I have realized while being here how much my support system means to me. My little family is there for me through thick and thin and sitting in this hotel room makes me really appricate them all much more then I ever have before. This is the first time I have ever done anything alone. I'm taking care of myself, no one is here to look out for me. Its been hard but I know deep down that this job is better for my family and I, and this trip has been a learning experience for me.

So What Wednesday

My first link up! Kinda exciting! I have been reading "Life After I Dew" for a long time and am so excited to post my own So What's! So here goes nothing!

So What If I....

1) Am terrified to fly alone and be away from my husband for 3 weeks for training for the new job! This girl is shaking in her heels!
2) Haven't sent out my thank you cards for the wedding yet. They are stamped though :)
3) Truly believe that my co-worker is a single white female canidate! She copies everything I do! At first kinda flattering now it's just creepy!
4) Secretly hope and pray when I enter my home town (which is the town next to the one I live in now) that no one recognizes me! I hate fake convos!!
5) Love the way my husband looks in his work clothes! It's how I met him so it brings back memories!

Out With The Old....

In with the new JOB! After lots of consideration, a few sleepless nights, and lots of tears I have decided to not take a promotion at my current job and start a brand new one. This is probably one of the most riskiest moves I have ever made. I have to go to Atlanta for training and stay there for 3 weeks. Fun fact - I have only been on a plane once! I'm very nervous about the whole thing but I know it my heart I made the right move. I'm going to miss my husband and my little yorkie Bentley so much. He is going to come up and see me one of the weekends while I'm away, thank GOSH! I'm also going to miss my mom, dad, and sis. I have never been away from them for more then a week! This is a huge learning experience for me and even though I'm scared, I know this is a good thing for me and my family. Wish me luck!!