So What If...

Happy Wednesdays Love Bugs! This week I'm saying so what to...

- Getting rid of my facebook, you can see my reasoning in my post from yesterday.
- I spent yesterday in my PJs on the couch doing NOTHING. Cramps suck!!!
- Not understanding wtf happened to forever 21. Has anyone noticed the clothes just are not that cute anymore?!?! Or am I just getting older?? Hmmmm
- I never ever say curse words. I mean I have I be really really angry to say something bad. And I would never say anything like that in front of my parents!! I don't know why, I just don't think it sounds cute coming out of my mouth
- Eating so much guacamole it almost made me sick..but it was soooo good!!!

Happy Wednesday!!!

Deactivating and Preseed

I deactivated my facebook account today because
1) I don't talk to anyone except my sister in law who I can text
2) I'm so tired of everyone having babies and I'm not. Sorry to be so blunt but I'm jealous
3) I also don't care about your fancy vaca, your perfect life, and your gorgeous new purse.

I hate when people say "Facebook is turning into the new "MySpace" because I always thought they were basically the same! It's just a time waster and a perfect place for gossip and stalking (2 things I can get sucked into very easily). Im still on Instagram of you want to check me out there my name is "mrseiben".

Ok next topic...Preseed. I ordered some today because my period of course came again today!!! Its not getting the message that it is NOT welcomed here!!! If you have any reviews good or bad about Preseed please let me know.

Until next time....

The weekend is over....

But my vacation has just begun! So after feeling down in the dumbs on Friday I decided that I will not succumb to those anxious feelings again. I basically had a mini-meltdown Friday night and it felt GOOD. I told my husband what I was feeling concerning money issues and such and he said the kindest words "whatever your feeling pick it up and hand it over to me". It just felt like such a relief. He is my angel sent from above and knowing I get to spend the rest of my life with him is such a blessing. I gathered up the strength and decided to have a meeting with a real estate broker so I'm going to dive back into my first passion, which is selling houses. I hope to build up enough foundation where I am able to do it full time again. Yesterday I went to church and to say that I needed that is an understatement. It felt like I was rejuvenated and cleansed. Life is full of blessings and this week I'm going to sit back and soak in the sun and all that I have around me!

Friday Letters

This past week has been kind of up and down. I've again been feeling a little off and wish I could brush that feeling off. I'm SO not a Debbie Downer so I'm trying to just get over it by exercising and wine!! Hmmm wine is not the best thing but if def is a good bandaid!! If anyone has any recommendations to deal with anxiety I would be so grateful!

Dear Mom, I'm sorry I blew up at you this week over stupid things. I just have so much going on in this little head of mine that sometimes I just blow up. I'm sorry and love you so so much :(
Dear Interviews today, I'm so excited to maybe have a chance of doing something I love! The job I have now is not for me and I'm accepting that. Crossing my fingers things go good today!!
Dear Hubby, can you please past your insurance test soon!! Your trying so hard and took the test twice and are 2 points away from passing!!!
Dear Bank Account, why is there nothing ever in you!
Dear Vacation, your almost here!!!! I can't wait to soak up every second of you!!!

Bye Bye Bye Early Twenties!!

Tomorrow is June 1st, which means I only have 27 days left of being 24 which also means I'm finished with my early twenties. Here are a few things I have learned from my early twenties that I will carry with me every birthday to come!

- Make yourself happy. Do what you want regardless of what anyones opinion is.
- But ALWAYS listen to the advice from people who love you, they only want the best for you. Whether you use it or not, always listen.
- Do NOT stay in a relationship just because it is comfortable, you will look back and realize that you have wasted precious time on something that will never change.
- Along those lines, you can not change a person just because you want them to be a certain way. It will blow up in your face.
- Never take for granted the special
bond you have with your animals, at 23 my family lost our family dog after 18 years. She was basically my sister and I miss her every day.
- God has his plan for you so stop trying to make your own! At 20 I thought by the age of 25 I would be a mommy of 2 with a police officer as a husband and a perfect little life. My life is COMPLETELY opposite.
- Love your family with all your heart, as my husband would say "they are all you've got in this world".

I hope this has inspired even one person. Cheers to my last month of being 24!!!!

So What Wednesdays!!!

It's been a while since I've wrote on my little blog!! Today I'm going to say so what to....
- Not blogging for almost a month! Not much going on here in Brittany world
- Kinda sorta hating my job. I know I know I should be happy but it's just not for me. I've been looking for something with a little bit more meaning.
- I drank so much wine last night...all before my husband came home from work. Bad wifey!!!
- I want an IPad, I don't need one at all I just want one really really bad!
- I also want new bedding, a grill, sprinkler system and so much more house stuff! I better keep that job of mine!!
- Speaking of keeping my job, my husband hears on a daily basis that I should be a stay at home mom to Bentley
- I made a "Call me maybe" video that Bentley actually looks like he is lip syncing the song too!! It's a huge hit at my work but I'm too embarrassed about posting because I look like a HOT mess!

Friday Letters

Dear Bentley, how can something be so cute yet so bad! When daddy tried to get you out of bed you had a little accident and I had to wash our huge comforter! I still love you though no matter how bad you are! Dear Sore Throat, please go AWAY! Dear work, I do NOT feel like going to you today but I guess I have to :( bills need to be PAID! Dear Husband, I love you forever and always no matter what. Dear Ice T and Coco, I have noticed that I'm not changing the channel immediately when I see you in TV, that scares me. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend xoxo

Life as a wife

I love being a wife. I love the feeling of having my husband to come home to every night and having him by my side through thick and thin. It's crazy but I actually enjoy doing his laundry, making him dinner, and all the other things that I do for him. People say I will get sick of it soon and I'm just in the newlywed stage but until then I will keep being the best wife I know how to be! Below is a picture of me doing one of my wifey things, grocery shopping! xoxo

So What Wednesdays!!

Happy Hump Day!! Today I'm saying So What To....

- That mess of a post last night. I hate that feeling when your tired but your mind is racing but after I wrote out my thoughts like that it actually helped me fall asleep.
- Laying on the couch right now instead of walking on the treadmill. I have a horrible headache :(
- Watching the same shows over and over. There is nothing ever on!!
- Loving that new show on Lifetime with Jennifer Love Hewitt "The Client List" I'm hooked!! She is absolutely gorgeous and should be my motivation to get my a$$ on the treadmill!!
- Being excited every time my husband and I have a day off together. It's nice being together because we are usually never together!

Can't sleep...Random Thoughts

Right now my heart is pounding because of the 2 cups of coffee I drank at like 2:00pm and I can't sleep at all. I'm watching 16 and pregnant and thinking about how I can't believe these teenagers are having babies when they themselves are babies. Not saying it can't be done, my grandma had my mom when she was very young and she is just fine. My husband is sleeping next to me and is breathing so loudly! It kind of annoys me but it's kind of comforting if that makes any sense. Work has been ok, I've been getting some people asking about the age difference between my husband and I and I've been having to defend our love. It's really annoying and the people I work with know nothing about the deep love we feel. Speaking of work, I've been doing ok, selling is something I can do. My husband is now making some weird noise with his mouth...the train horn noise I call it. I've been kind of in a Christmas mood...it's April, very weird. I've also been in a New Jersey Housewife mood..I can't get enough of them...maybe because it reminds me of my own family. Speaking of my family, I'm so happy to see my sister happy. She is dating such a wonderful person who fits her to a tee. When I think of them a really good Colbie Callat song comes to mind called "Talior Made". Now that we are on the topic of songs, I really miss the zone I used to get into when listening to John Mayer. I would lay in my bed and just go into a deep relaxing zone, now I'm scared to shut my eyes until I'm completely exhausted because I'm so scared my mind will keep racing. Well I'm going to try to close my eyes and drift into dream world. xoxo

The past week...

The past week I've been kind of in a little slump. Trying to conceive and it not working has kind of taken its toll on me and I had a mini meltdown. Its so hard for me to not be in control! My husband knew I was feeling down so he sent some flowers to my work and it really lifted my spirits up. We will get through anything together no matter what. Here are some pictures of the past week including my boys sporting there penguin attire!!! Go Pens!!!!

Easter Recap

Easter brunch this year was very relaxing. With lots of yummy foods that included colorful deviled eggs and a scrumptious hash brown casserole my mom made. There was many mimosas consumed and when there was no more champagne we improvised with vodka instead. The boys played horseshoes and the girls took in some sun. After the family left my husband and I went in and out of sleep watching 2 Lifetime movies (my favorite). Hope everyone had a wonderful Easter and have a great week! Here are a few pictures of the day, the most hilarious one is the one where my sister and I are caught in the act arguing. Sisterly love at its finest!

Friday Letters

Dear Husband, that you for always being so patient and understanding with me, your always there when I need you. I adore you. Dear Bentley, Right now your in my lap curled up in a ball sound asleep. You are such an amazing little fur baby and watching you sleep so peaceful may be one of my favorite things. Dear Mole in the pool that drowned, I have been thinking about you and feel so horrible that you drowned in my pool but you have sparked my interest in google moles. They are just too cute with there little webbed feet and long noses!! RIP little mole. Dear my beautiful flowers I planted, please keep it together, I've been watering you and watching you and you better not die!! Dear future baby, I've been so focused on you and your not even a twinkle yet! God knows when the right time is so I'm just going to continue to put all my faith in him about you and stop worrying so much about it.

I hope anyone who is reading this has a wonderful and relaxing Easter! xoxo

Planting

I'm soooooo not the outdoors kind of girl. The most I usually do is lay out outside and then I'm right back in. Well, something this week has gotten in to me and all I want to do is be outside!! It may be the beautiful weather we have been having or the fact that I want to make our outside not look like no one lives here! I started small with some planting in a a wagon my husband found and also a pot my sister gave me. Hopefully I can keep them alive!!!!

So What Wednesday!!!?

It's Wednesday again!!! Here are the SO WHATS I'm feeling this week! So What to.....

- The last time I blogged was last weeks So What! I really need to start working on my blog!!
- I don't have an Easter dress this year!! I'm kinda sad about this but I will put together some spring getup for the special day!
- Working FABOULOUS hours at work!!!! I think it's a huge huge mistake because I'm the last on the list for seniority but I'm not saying a word!!!!
- Not having to much Easter decor, ok well none except a table runner my mom gave to me. I haven't seen anything I like!!
- Always planning at least 45 min after I wake up to drink coffee and relax on the couch.
- Hating when I walk into work and people are immediately on my back. Let me put my purse away people!!!!! Gosh I hate that!!!!

Happy Hump Day!! This week I'm saying SO WHAT to...

- Workin really hard yesterday...on my TAN!! It was amazing, I spent the whole day lounging by my pool with Bentley by my side!! Def on my list of things I do again on my next day off!
- Not having any Easter decor up yet! Last year I didn't have any so this year I must stock up!
- Stealing my hubbys cup of coffee this morning. He didn't make too much and I dont have to be to work for a little bit! I mean it was just sitting there!!!
- Drinking way to much wine...enough said!!
- Posting the fifty habits of successful people at work...those guys need a boost!!!

My life through Instagram

I'm loving Instagram!!! Has anyone noticed that you just look better after Instagram does it's thing on your pictures! My user name is mrseiben if you would like to follow my exciting (boring) life!!

Happy Valentines Day...I Guess

I'm not a big fan of Valentines Day, not sure why but I really don't care about it that much. Not because I don't have a Valentine because I now have have a permanent one, I think its because everyone makes a huge deal about loving there significant other today, something they should do every day of the year! OK so I will stop being a Valentine HATER!

Anyways, last night after work I came home and started having HORRIBLE cramps and of course my monthly gift came! How happy (NOT)!! I'm tired of TTC!!!! I'm sick of thinking I'm ovulating and obviously I'm NOT! I want to be a MOM!!! You spend your whole life before the point when you decide to have a baby trying not to and when you want to....NOTHING!! I hope and pray there is nothing wrong with my husband or I. Its terrifying to think about and I google about it everyday!! I just wish I was able to just go with the flow and let God take control but its so hard! I want to be a mom, I want to see my husband be a daddy!!!! I see people all around me getting pregnant and being Mommy's its hard to want something so bad! I know there are girls out there who are going through the same thing so any support is appreciated. Sorry for the rants and complaining, I just needed to let it out!!

15 Random Facts About ME

1) My middle name is Marie
2) I have a younger sister she is my best friend and I still think of her as a baby...even though she is 21!
3) I dream of the day when I can become a mom, I think about it everyday
4) I was runner up in a little miss NY when I was 3, my mom still can't believe a little red head won lol!
5) I moved from Upstate NY to South Florida when I was 10. I wouldn't change growing up in snow and making piles of leaves for anything.
6) I come from a family of Hair Dressers so I have never had to pay for anything doing with hair
7) Im Italian & Irish
8) Burt's Bees lip balm is a must have for me
9) I'm a total chocoholic!!! Can't get enough
10) I used to be very over weight and lost about 80 lbs. During that time I learned about self discipline and how to eat in moderation. I'm not as strict as I used to be but I know I have the will power to do anything I put my mind to
11) I have a BA in Managment, worked a full time 60+ job while going to school.
12) My husband is amazing, see below our love story. He is my best friend and has showed me what real true love is
13) I love over the top high shoes. Maybe because I'm only 5"1
14) I worked with my parents for about 3 years, they are awesome and we had so much fun
15) I gravitate towards anything glittery or pink. I'm the biggest girlie girl around!!!

Our Love Story

Today I'm linking up with "From Mrs To Mama" for a wonderful Valentines Day Post to talk about Our Love Story!




1. How long have you and your significant other been together?
Met in 2009, started dating 2010, Engaged and Married 2011


2. How did you meet? {What's your "love" story?}
When I walked into my new job at a rental car company he was the first person I met. He was funny and sweet but we were both in relationships that were in major decline. Both of us unhappy with we're our lives were going. Once we were both able to break away from our previous relationships we both realized that we meant more to each other then anything we have ever experienced before. He is my soul mate, my everything and I'm so happy that I was blessed with such a wonderful person to be by my side.




3. If married, how long have you been married? If not, is this the guy you hope to marry? {do tell}
Since August 13, 2011, the most amazing day of my life



4. If you are married, where did you get married at? Big or small wedding? If not, where would you like to get married? And will it be big or small?
We were married in a tropical garden. It was a small wedding, about 100 people. I would not have had it any other way.




5. Do you have any nick-names that you call one another? Do share!
I call him love bug (no idea why) and he calls me his diamond.

6. Name 3 things you love most about your honey.
- His Heart, he is so kind and thoughtful. You can see how much he truly loves me with his whole heart and nothing less
- His Eyes, they are so blue and you can see how sincere of a person he is, when you look at them
- His love for all things Pittsburgh, at first I thought it was a little overboard but its nice to see someone so passionate about something.




7. Tell us how he proposed? Or your ideal proposal?
He proposed on 1/1/2011 as soon as the ball dropped. It was perfect, we were home, just the 2 of us after a very expensive trip to the melting pot. Could not have asked for anything better.

8. Is he a flowers and teddy bear kind of guy for v-day, or strawberries, champagne, and rose petals?
None of these, he is a Pandora charms kind of guy. Since he bought me the bracelet all of my gifts have consisted of charms for it. I think he bought it to make it easier for HIM! lol its OK though I love them!

9. Are you a sunset dinner on the beach kind of girl, or pop a movie in and relax on the couch?
I'm a home body for LIFE! I LOVE staying home and just relaxing with my hubby. I think its because we never get to just relax together!

10. Tell us one thing you'd like to do with your significant one day. If you could do anything? Go anywhere?
I want to have a family with my husband. We have been TTC for a few months now and it hasn't happened yet. I want to see my husband become a dad because I know how wonderful he would be at it. It will happen....patience is not my best quality.

11. Tell us what you plan on doing on this Valentine's Day.
Nothing Special, Probably make a nice dinner because I have off that day

12. Are you asking for anything this Valentine's day?
Nope, we just spent lots of money of furniture so I'm not asking for anything

13. Give us one piece of advice of keeping a relationship strong and full of love.
Follow your heart and never give up if you truly feel something is right for you. My husband is older then me and I had so many people tell me I'm crazy, including my parents, sisters, friends, co workers, etc. Everyone who you usually have as a support system had turned there back on me. I knew our love was stronger and deeper then that and for the first time in my life I listened to my heart and not the other voices around me. It was the best decision I have ever made for myself.

14. Show us a picture of what love means to you.


Ok so let me explain the question you may have when looking at this picture and why the heck does this picture show what love means to me. First question...Why does John have socks on? Well, this picture was taken on our honey moon and my very light skinned husband had litterally 3rd degree burns on his feet from the sun so he wore socks the WHOLE time. This picture shows us, exactly how we are together. We are fun, and in love and ready for anything that comes our way.