33 Weeks

Unbelievable...I will be a mommy in less then 7 weeks. I have wished for this little miracle my whole life. I'm so anxious but so nervous all at the same time. I feel my little Crosby moving right now as I sit in my bubble bath. I'm so excited to see John as a dad. He will be the most amazing father ever and when I stress out I remind myself he is by my side and we are in this crazy thing called life together.
Life is such an amazing journey and sometimes I forget how blessed I am. Crosby is a gift from our Lord above and I can't wait to hold this little miracle in my arms!!!

10 Weeks & 3 Days

It seems so far but so soon all at the same time. Our little angel will be making is appearance in about that time frame and I can NOT wait to see his beautiful face. This past week I was able to see him in 3D which was absolutely amazing! I think he looks like John but I guess we wont know until he gets here. His nursery is complete, all I need to get is his name put up but I cant figure out where to put it or what type of letters to get. We are very blessed that our family has helped us in so many ways I cant even express how thankful I am to them. Bentley is doing great, I don't know if he knows what is coming but I'm hoping and praying that he will be a great big brother to Crosby. Right now I'm working full time and I have to say it is getting hard. Not that I have an extremely hard job but it is hard not being able to take a nap during the day. I come home exhausted at night and cant sleep because I'm so uncomfortable but I keep saying to myself that this is for Crosby. I'm able to have money for our little one while I'm out. My dream would be to not have to work when he gets here but I think it will be too hard. John has been on a few job interviews that pay more but we will see how that goes. I do thank God that I am able to work because there are so many pregnant women who cant so I try to look at the bright side.

So What Wednesday...

Wow it's been awhile since I've done this! So what if..

- I was craving a McDonald's cheeseburger and fries yesterday and had to cave in! It was AMAZING by the way!

- Bentley hasn't gotten groomed in awhile. His poor hair is out of control!

- We haven't started on Crosby's nursery yet. Johns Fam is coming down from PA and they need some where to sleep!

- I'm so excited my sis is going to watch Crosby so that I am able to go back to work. I would LOVE to be a sahm but I don't think we could ever afford it!

- I'm so happy my bangs are growing out!!! Why did I cut them in the first place!!

Where did you come up with Crosby??

Ok so it's not a "normal" name. It does have some uniqueness too it, that could be a reason why I like it so much. My husband is a HUGE Pittsburgh Penguin fan and if you know anything about hockey you know that Sydney Crosby is their captain a a very good player for them. We decided years ago that if we had a boy Crosby was going to be his name. I know how much it means to my husband for his little man to be named after something hockey related. I've had some mixed reviews on the name, some love it, some hate it but we love it, and that is all that matters :)

Life...

Here are a few pictures from the past few weeks. I feel like my brain is consumed with baby,baby,baby and I LOVE IT! I'm so blessed to be carrying this little guy :) Much more to come this week...what I have bought so far for Crosby, how we came up with his name, and more baby things!

Dear Crosby

To my baby Crosby,
 My angel from above. I have not even seen your beautiful face but I love you so deeply you have no idea. You mean the world to me and are now the main thought in my mind at all times. Your mommy and daddy love you so so much. You are bringing a new meaning to our life's. It's not just about us anymore it's all about YOU! I know you will love your family when you get here, each one of us are anxiously awaiting your arrival. Your Shu Shu, my mommy is very very excited about you! She has already bought so many outfits for you! You at going to be so stylish!! Your Grandpa Wally can't wait to hold you and give you lots and lots of kisses. As I'm sitting here in the Enterprise office I just felt your little kicks!! I will finish this letter when I can leave here... I have so much to tell you!!!

Love,
Your Mommy

New Years...

Well I'm 4 days late in making my resolutions but at least I'm attempting. I've never really made a list of things I want to change about myself when the new year comes around but I think this year will be different.

Give my husband more kisses. Worry less. Love more. Stop being so competitive. Cook better meals. Enjoy the sun. Cherish time with my family. Be the best mom I can be BUT do not put to much pressure on myself for that. Go to the beach more. Relax. Take walks at night. Learn to love myself, faults and all. Light my candles. Give Bentley more baths. Stop obsessing over money. Put the phone down. Take time for myself. Have more date nights (home or not). Get over my past mistakes. Take more pictures when Crosby arrives. Not taking any moment of Crosby being little for granted because I know how fast it goes. Stop caring about others opinions. BLOG MORE.

We have decided on the name Crosby. Crosby was the first name my husband and I chose because of my hubbys obsession with the Pittsburgh Penguins and the captain of the team is Sydney Crosby. It is different yet not too much. We have had lots of opinions, good and bad but know that this is the perfect name for out little boy. Only a few more months until he is in our arms!